Tuesday, February 26, 2008

When You Wish Upon A Star...

Everything my heart desired, I recieved. On one brisk morning of October I woke up pregnant!

I didn't know it would happen this way but it did. It was my birthday weekend. And the festivities began well before October 11th! There was a lot going on for me at the time. My husband and I were buying a new house & I had just been offered a great job in New Jersey. I had lots of reasons to celebrate this birthday year. Although in the depths of my heart..there was still a slight ache. An aching for a child that would make our young family complete. I put it in God's hands & let Jesus take the wheel on this one. I had decided some time ago to be happy & grateful for all of the wonderful things we did have & the blessings that we were lucky enough to receive.

My husband took me out to a special birthday dinner & Broadway show & I spent a night out with some friends celebrating!! One of my childhood favorite movies was Mary Poppins so my husband surprised me with tickets to see this show live! I knew all the songs & characters and it was like I was 8 years old again :) That evening somewhere in our conversation he mentioned, "so when is Aunt Flo due?" And it got me to thinking and I started counting back & recounting & thought..."could it be?" Could I really be late?? With all the festivities & packing I hadn't gone back to track my trusty fertility chart!! At this point I was just figuring we'd hit our 12 month mark & I'd eventually go in for some tests & then whatever came next.

That Friday night I had some hope but a part of me didn't want to feel disappointed again. The next morning I decided I would "pee on a stick" that's translation for a home pregnancy test. But I didn't tell my husband because I didn't want to get his hopes up either.

On Saturday morning October 13th at around 6:30AM I woke up & went to the bathroom & rummaged through my medicine cabinet for that one last home pregnancy test that I never used. Where was it??!! Where was it??!! UUGHH the frustration was killing me and so was the desire to relieve my full bladder. AHA I found it. I took very careful steps to do it right and not make a mess. Trust me when I tell you that peeing on a stick is quite an art form when you've done it as many times as I had in the last year. And then I let it lay there and looked away for a bit. I couldn't look at it. I just couldn't!! All the scenarios run through your mind & you begin to wonder why this form of self torture?? And then with all the courage I had in me, I looked...and I saw what must have been the BIGGEST BRIGHTEST MOST PERFECT + sign I had ever seen in my life. It was shock & awe right there in my bathroom.

After I stopped shaking & got the feeling back in my legs I ran & jumped on my bed to awaken my poor sleepy husband. LOOK! LOOK! WE DID IT! WE DID IT! And then I cried with every ounce of energy inside of me. I couldn't even get words out at that moment. We held each other for a long time.

A Definite Plus

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